Seus olhos de gota
Me olham tão fundo
Que me sinto nua
Nua de remorso algum
Mas algo ainda me incomoda
Olhar no espelho e ver os olhos de gota
E possibilidades de memórias
E a dor
A dor que inspira
E na furtiva tentativa de te sentir mais perto
Com medo de me curar de você.
De manhã acordo mais leve,
Cicatrizando a ferida que abri
Quase sem querer
Na noite em que
Olhando no espelho
Enxerguei teus olhos de gota
E chorei baixinho
Lembrando do parque
E das gotas que deixei em teus olhos
Os olhos de gota
Que acabam com a rima. Fim.
Hey there my boy…
As I told you… I wouldn’t forget the date!
Since a long time we’ve been growing old apart of each other with no communication. It’s part of the biggest plan…
Time is passing by and we’re building different streets to drive in the future.
A future too different from what we imagine today, and even more than we used to believe in the past. You are getting older and today you have the opportunity to give yourself a chance to let your old skin behind.
A new year and a new circle began today, (even if you think it’s not true). We still have time to pratice the flight to get experience and find each other again in the air!!
If you allow me, I would like to wish you in this special day, that you can give the right value to every kind of God’s manifestation in your day. Not only today, but today specially…
To each kid who passes next to you shinning with more and more desire to learn new things (they are pretty examples of who we really are inside, and should be outside too).
To each smile you see around you, no matter it’s intensity or size, or face, or reason. Get out of home today (even to walk), and look around you. Look up for a smile, I’m sure you’ll find it somewhere! If you think it’s getting hard to find a smile, try yourself to make it blow up from the deepest part of you.
Let it come anyway. It can come a little bit shy, or kind of suspicious one. It can come easily or, after tears, it can come stronger and inspirate yourself and the ones around you. (P.S:. Be sure you won’t know it’s taste, if you don’t even try.)
Feel the wind and try to note how people move, how the trees move and the world’s movement. We’re in the best season of the year to notice how trees change their leafs!
Find the value of experience the begin of a new year in your life, and how much we all still have to learn to begin giving the right value to the smallest things around us.
And when I tell “give the right value”, I’m not telling you to give value to the good moments you live only. Of course they are the best ones, but the secret to begin giving the right value to them is to give the right value to the hardest moments we have to experience in life.
These hard moments come to make us learn something about ourselves. Something that will make us stronger than before, and even more thankfull for the good moments we’re about to live after them.
I wish you to conquer freedom from all negative point of view about yourself, and about the world around you. There are lots of things happening outside. Things we surely cant help all alone. I know you would hold the whole world into your arms like a baby to make it feel better, but you can’t. I can’t. As I told you, bad and good things happen to make people learn something. And if we focus on bad things, we probably arent learning anything at all. It must be hard to realize and understand, but everybody has it’s time to do it.
I’m not telling you to be conformed with all the suffering around you. It’s impossible to the ones who had their eyes open. But, to keep in mind that suffer is something necessary to grow up, and to “grow up” means realize that our pain isn’t the biggest one in the world, is usually a hard lesson. There are a lot of suffering people who give us examples of how to conquer freedom from the slavery of fear and pain.
You are probably asking yourself “Who this bitch think she is to tell me all these things?”. Anyway, I can tell you I’m the one who respect your freedom of being who you are, and the decisions you may probably do in the future, and the ones you did in the past. It’s not about us. It’s about you and yourself.
If I could wish you more feelings and experiences of life, I’d rather wish you the feeling of leave past in the past (even the last minute you left behind) and live today as if past was a nice dream to learn with, and future is like a possibility of new ones.
I would wish you silent moments of reflexion about yourself, and also electric times of action to feel and make yourself real. For you first.
I would wish you to live and experience good moments by yourself, and not for what the other ones should think about the action, or about you.
I wish you to conquer patience, first with yourself, and after to the other people and situations.
Don’t be so hard with yourself when you make some mistake. If you feel you did something wrong as if you couldn’t forgive yourself about that, remember you acted with all the knowledge you had about life till that moment. And the moment after that, gives you a new chance to make it different.
People are constantly learning, as you and me. No one come to this world in vain, and no one is better than anyone, no matter it’s knowledge about literature, music, art, social class, job, race, color, material ownes, friendship of philosophy of life.
Everyone you know has something to teach you and learn from you. We naturaly atract people to our lives, to learn from them exactly what they have to offer from their way of living and personality. Then, when they go alway, one way or another, an important part of their mission is done and they dont even know that! If they come back to our lives by destiny, we surely have once an opportunity to learn something more from them.
And it’s wonderful learn something new!
Well… I’d like you to read this letter as you didn’t know the one who sent it. In truth, I can tell you don’t really know the one who sent it. We should meet each other again to be sure of that hahaha. And I must confess It would be wonderful if when it happens (in the future, because I’m sure it will happen one day), and we feel like we’re not the same anymore. In a good way if you gotch it.
If anytime in this letter you felt any word sounded pretentious or arrogant, please, It wasnt my intention.
I’m sure you already know a lot about the things I wrote here. I’m not trying to teach you anything, please don’t take me wrong. I am constantly learning and I think it’s a big responsability to teach anything to anyone. I dont wanna this kind of ego too soon.
Anyway, we can’t tell the other people that something is good if we dont live that. And the things I took to myself and felt that it works, I sincerely wish to everyone around me (even know each person has it’s own experiences, and it can work different from person to person).
I just want you to take this letter as a kind of gift given by a classmate you dont know yet, but count the years as minutes to know you in the future.
My sincere wishes to you in this April 12th.